Balayées les amours

Helen and I had time to say everything that needed to be said.  But I have one regret: I didn't understand - I hope that Helen did - that once she started on terminal care drugs she would no longer be fully herself.  So we never discussed how she wanted decisions made about increasing her dose - should she have more midazolam to help her relax, or less so that she'd be more lucid and perhaps be less anxious for it.  I hope I did the right thing, but if you have to face this situation it's a conversation you should have.